waking from a bad dream

I let the day get away,

Unrequited desire,

Lost for a shotgun marriage of hearts

我想要靠近她

我希望。。。

I let sweet love's lost

Lust away,

Thinking throughout time

To a thought's last spark.

Always thinking,

Always trying to forget.

She was there.

我想。。。

Too late, 

too god damned fucking late

Awake from 7 AM's

Nightmare slumbers.

About she who never was

I don't know if she ever will be.

But I hope.

I am rattled.

Disraught. Totally disheveled.

What do I do?